from mine very own ''scrapbook diaries '09''

i'm looking at the man in the mirror and i dont like what i see cus its not what i was meant to be.
im looking at the man in the mirror after all these tears, beers and fucked up fears.
im looking atthe man in the mirror and i can see he's gazing back, towards emptiness and and empty lands, shaken hands, but noone still withstands.
im looking at the man in the mirror, and he's lost all selfrespect, 'pon the walls written image i forever reflect!
im looking at the man in the mirror and i ask:
''who knocked you off the tracks?'' and i say:
''i'll be fine, go away, i need noone to stay,
i spent eternity alone, always, but yet still never in my home,
the place i belong.
i've tried to change my ways, but it's hard finding someone to love these days, so to abyss my eyes gaze.

good god forgive,
i never even wanted to live,
bad god forbid,
dreaming in my bed i hid,
why is the world crowned cruel?
when i was young i thought society was a crown jewel
i dont care, i have seen the ending through,
only one who could save me, and it was you!